Well, here we are again, about to start another Lent. I’ve been thinking about all the things I could do to grow closer to You this year – sacrifices I could make or ways I could try to be a better person.
Funny, but I think I’ve actually come to look forward to Lent. About this time every year, I notice that my life seems a little off kilter – like how it feels when you need to have your tires aligned. I seem to be veering off the road and things just aren’t as smooth as they should be. In fact, the ride’s gotten pretty bumpy! My tone has grown too harsh, my pace has gotten too frenzied, and my brain has become too cluttered and distracted. Even my prayer has begun to feel forced and methodical. Jesus, I know You can fix all this. I know You have the answers. And, You’ve given me the next 40 days to discover them, too. A “cleanse” of the best kind – one for my soul!
Help me to make the most of this time, to let it be what You want it to be. Help me, Lord, to not make this Lent about me, but about You. To know that it’s okay to give up sweets if it helps me to form my will. But don’t let me turn it into my “Lenten diet.” Help me to see that it would be wonderful to reach out to that old friend who I haven’t seen in a long time. But not if it’s just going to be “one more thing on my plate.” To understand that finally picking up that spiritual book on my bedside table would be a great way to spend my time. But not at the expense of my family. Help me to realize that what You really want is for me to spend time with You, like good friends should. And that I need to sit quietly sometimes and give You a chance to get a word in edgewise…
Jesus, help me to put you back at the center of my life, to realign my will with Yours. Help me to make Lenten resolutions that aren’t as lame as the ones I made for New Years – and that won’t disappear as quickly as my kids’ Easter candy! Help me to experience a real change of heart – true conversion, as only You can do.
Most importantly, when it’s all said and done, help me to give credit where credit is due. To see that whatever good happens is all Your doing. Thank you, Lord. I know You’ll be with me every step of the way.